P R O F I L E. *

from childhood till beyond

you should be dating a tAuRus..

20 April - 20 May
this gentle creature is dependable.. artistic.. and very calm and patient.. though taurus has the tendency to be self-indulgent.. stubborn or materialistic.. this bull naturally enjoys a roll in the hay..

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haiz.. now's like 1 plus plus.. and i'm still home.. and i still getting out?? hUiEn stayed up late last night.. maybe she needs to get more sleep ba.. she hasn't confirm anything.. maybe she should stay home.. be good girl before 2004 ba.. ^-^ i dunno ar.. i'm feeling a little the lost ar.. plans very unorganized.. so not the way i usually work man.. haiz.. mom actually wanted to go out de.. but.. my plans are so crappy that my mummy got her colleagues to go out with her le.. haiz.. but i so wanna go shopping de.. me wanted to get my new year stuffs.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. hUiEn.. i'm still awaiting for your answer ar.. ay.. kiez lah.. got to get going le.. grandma naggy for me to go take my shower le.. she wanna me accompany her go the shopping centre opposite my house.. she wanna go see new clothes too.. she wanna get a malay costume.. okiez.. bYEz..




erm.. how's my new look?? erm.. i kinda love it.. think it's real swEEt de.. heez.. gotten a new song too.. cannot part with B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D.. but.. this new song's by 5566 too.. it's called 守候.. niCE niCe song too.. LoVE 56 lots lots.. ^-^ ay.. xiEzHi's gotten a flu.. coz now's winter over in taiwan.. and they still gotta hold their autograph sessions out in the cold.. so sad.. hope he gets well soon.. anyway.. xiEzHi's fifth in the �剧 something 人物排行榜.. although he's only fifth.. but i think he really very good le.. he only took up two shows and he's working on fine.. HE's THE BEST!! ^-^ anyway.. today's already the new year's eve le.. ay.. wonder wat we gonna do on new year's eve.. erm.. eLi wanna stay home with her family.. then.. the rest didn't say anything.. hUiEn's hoping she can go out.. then yup.. haiz.. why's this new year's eve so crappy de.. haiz.. jErEmy they all got some programs planned.. i was asked to join them.. but like.. extreme extra de.. haiz.. if hUiEn can't go out.. then guessed i'll stay home.. probably.. we could do a countdown over the phone.. then wish everyone.. HaPPy NeW yEAR!! haha.. i mean.. that's another alternative..
maybe.. at this late hour.. i shall.. get my new year resolutions set ba.. haha.. ay.. 新年新希望.. firstly.. wanna do better for my course.. then.. forget that sOmEoNE.. move on with life.. be more faithful.. heez.. gotta lose more weight.. get a better diet.. start doing exercise.. stop laziness.. haha.. then.. i wanna get a job.. somewat a so-called 'constant' pay de.. so i could go shopping.. but.. i guess it's time i start controlling too.. stop spending on unnecessary stuff.. haiz.. i juz threw lots of rubbish away.. phew.. wanna treat all my friends better.. sorry to anyone.. if i hasn't been very nice to you.. (i mean.. i couldn't be very bad.. but.. i dunno.. maybe in some way or the other ba..) and.. i wanna wish for world peace.. no more s.a.r.s.. no more terrorism.. no more flood.. no more drought.. no more earthquakes.. no more deaths.. gotta get along better with brother and daddy.. haven't talked a lot to my dad le.. dunno why.. probably becoz he's the stricter parent ba.. lastly.. me hope to find my tRuE LoVE.. someone who would truthfully love me and care for me.. juz like the way i would.. ^-^ other than this.. some stuffs me wanna do to my appearance.. me wanna dye my hair.. LONG wanted to le.. haiz.. obviously.. lose weight and lose more weight.. change my sense of dressing.. to something i think is better.. ay.. juz gotta lose lots lots of weight.. heez.. nEw yEAr muz look pretty pretty le ar.. so lose weight's real important.. and kOr's getting married.. so all the more muz look pretty.. ^-^ okiez.. erm.. think that's abt it ba.. will update if i thought of more ba.. WORLD PEACE!! .. v.









heez.. gotten myself a new look for the bLOg le.. dunno leh.. feels a little plain still.. but i guess.. let's juz let it be ba.. ^-^ getting a little lazy to do le.. heez.. i tried not to change too much of the stuffs.. so kept the pics and all.. heez.. ay.. i wanted to change the song de.. but.. i think the song B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D has real meaningful lyrics.. haiz.. it's two more days and we receive the new year 2004!! let's all pray and hope for a new and better year ahead.. especially to hUiEn.. God bless!! ^-^ things will flow smoothly de.. dun worry..









ay.. it's this late and i'm still awake.. wat's with me?? actually.. wanted to head to bed le.. but.. i'm over exicited by sOmEoNE's sudden msg.. i'm so H.A.P.P.Y!! i dunno.. i was juz thinking of him.. and erm.. hE msged.. hE reads my mind.. i'm so sO H.A.P.P.Y!! really.. heez.. ^-^ but juz wat's with me de?? i so wanted to forget him de.. but why hE out of a sudden msg me de?? it's like.. i dunno.. haiz.. wat should i do.. T.T i dunno.. previously the quiz said.. i'm erm.. entirely devoted to that one person.. i can't get them out of my head.. is becoz.. i dun really want to.. izzit really that true?? but i really tried to forget le.. really.. T.T haiz.. nevermind.. probably.. i shall move along.. and see wat's juz gonna go on.. anyway.. didn't do anything much today.. spent quite a long time packing my room.. had done that for so many days le.. T.T real lots of stuff.. dunno where to put them to le.. finally.. i'm done.. got most of my books and magazines out of my room.. to the cabinet outside.. heez.. makes my room neater ba.. now.. that sOmEbOdy's in my mind.. can't get him off le.. how?? haiz.. i feel like crying.. but.. hE walked home.. real far.. took him almost 2 hours.. guess hE's very tired.. but.. hE msged me when.. hE's home.. hE said.. really mah?? wat made him suddenly msg me?? wat reminded him of me.. out of a real sudden?? i'm curious.. who hE went out with?? could someone tell me?? haiz.. hE's been watching a lot of movies.. so cool.. i'm been home packing stuffs.. it's real late.. hE hasn't gone to bed.. hE told me a lot of things.. wHy?? it's obvious i'm trying to stop him from replying me.. but.. hE continues off with a new topic.. haiz.. hE walked home.. muz get to sleep.. told him lots of times.. but hE doesn't listen.. haiz.. hE wanna hear me play my violin.. but.. i think it sounds awful.. hE doesn't mind.. hE juz wanna hear.. hE replied.. haiz.. wat is hE really think of?? i'm confused.. juz wat should i do?? i dunno too.. my mind's in complete emptiness.. i dunno wat i'm thinking abt.. i dun understand wat's going on.. i really dun.. hE's taken over my heart.. and it's hard for me to forget.. for me to let go.. maybe.. i shall juz get to bed.. maybe a niGHt fAiRiE might enlighten me.. NitEz..







you represent.. nAivEtE..
so innocent and trusting.. you can be very shy at times.. but it's only because you're not sure how to act.. you give off that.. "i need to be protected vibe.." remember that not all people are good.. being too trusting will get you easily hurt..

wAt fEELiNg dO yOu rEpREsENt?






tO hUiEn:
the decision is up to you.. i'm sure.. everyone will be there to support you.. even if they aren't.. you've still got me.. you could always come to me if you needed help ar.. it might have been a long childhood dream.. but remember.. it's for your own future.. if it really doesn't interest you.. then quitting might be a good result.. however.. ever thought abt how good your job opportunity is compared to many of us all?? when we graduate.. we might not even be able to find a suitable job.. yup.. but if.. like you always said.. you couldn't take stress.. i think you should really quit ba.. further down the generations.. when it's time for you to take over and teach.. kids aren't wat we are.. the innocent and ignorant ones already.. they might know even more than an adult could.. so think hard.. or maybe.. for your stubborness.. kids might suffer.. there's always lots that a teacher can't do.. can't scold.. can't say stuff a little sarcastic probably next time.. you are supposed to be the lead model.. then you might juz then have to suffer a hard time.. there's really a lot of thinking you'll have to consider and do.. really spend some time to think through.. there isn't much time left le.. remember.. i'll be here.. ^-^



ay.. today.. can say enjoyed myself quite a lot de lah.. heez.. did a lot of shopping ar.. although didn't buy much.. but at least me somewat know wat i wanna get le.. ^-^ and quite surprised ar.. dAniEL.. since few weeks after holiday.. we like never talk le.. then he called lor.. haha.. actually is quite happy lah.. but i know i shouldn't be.. haiz.. C.O.M.P.L.I.C.A.T.E.D.. i'm supposed to be faithful de.. but juz now meet hUiEn for lesson ah.. then she said.. "you like a lot of people de.." .. then i a bit dunno wat to say le.. aiyoh.. maybe quite true lor.. not as in LikE-LikE ar.. as in.. aDmiRE kind of a thing.. got the fLAsH aNd sPLAsH.. jOE.. then erm.. xiEzHi.. xiAOhUa.. wEiBO.. qiUzHE.. rEnFU.. hUAiEn.. dEsMoNd.. tErEnCE.. dAniEL.. ay.. maybe.. another dAniEL.. then erm.. still got who huh?? aiyoh.. a lot lor.. better dun list le.. that's wat i can think of for now ar.. haha.. aiyoh.. okie okie.. cannot ar.. muz be faithful.. heez.. nAuGHty nAuGHty.. haiz.. ay.. erm.. anyway.. today when erm.. heerens walk walk first then.. saw.. this niCE niCE jUMpER sKiRt.. very sweet de.. nicer than a lot of other places one.. not those normal kind we used to see see at far east and all de.. haha.. so in love with it.. and we went in flash and splash lor.. hE actually in the store de.. then ay.. didn't really get much chance of seeing him ar.. haiz.. but haha.. still managed to him ar.. and i'm sure hE knows we were there.. coz he saw.. and i was like.. erm.. kind of a grinning from ear to ear lah.. haha.. hE is so cUtE and sHuAi lor.. wa.. i'm crazy man.. heez.. ay.. then erm.. went ay.. cine to eat eat.. at yoshinoya.. hUiEn met bOOn cHOnG pass some stuff.. i'll leave that out.. haha.. then.. ate for rather long.. as usual.. heez.. ^-^ then went over to taka.. to erm.. ay.. can't really remember for wat.. went kino though.. ay.. my oPEn sEsAmE's not out yet.. but got myself a new one.. so swEEt de.. it's called.. 日月白*.. forgot the last word.. haha.. hUiEn got tell me ar.. but ay.. forget le.. heez.. ay.. then erm.. walk to wisma.. went topshop.. hUiEn wanna see clothes.. got somewat of a sale lor.. erm.. most places have ar.. the pOSt CHRiStMAs sALE.. oh yes.. giordano's having 30% too.. me wanna get a pair of jEAns!! erm.. anyway.. saw this grey dress.. looks nice ar.. but think on me look weird.. hUiEn dun wanna go try.. then forget abt getting it le.. anyway.. me like this wHitE swEAtER from the shop ar.. and erm.. miss selfridge's selling two for $36.. wonder if hUiEn wanna get one too.. haha.. (hUiEn.. tag your reply when you see this kiez.. heez..) i mean.. can save quite a lot lor.. then ay.. went scotts for dessert.. then went over to far east.. didn't see much stuff that i like at far east lah.. dun have figure ar.. so erm.. the clothes there cannot fit me de.. need to go on serious diet le.. but actually got this tube-dress quite nice.. thought can wear for dinner or something.. but i dunno leh.. mom ask me wear old dress.. got a lot all wear once only de.. haiz.. and tried this white tube-top at mango.. real nice ar.. maybe i could try a bigger-sized one.. but.. the 'm's juz nice.. but i think i'm a little too fat.. haiz.. anywayz.. me wanna get a t-shirt from d.p.O.. i like the rabbit print one.. very cute cute de.. heez.. anywayz.. felt so sorry ar.. hUiEn today actually can stay out late de.. but me gotta rush home.. and know wat.. rush home also do nothing.. parents in the end dun wanna go out le.. say very late liao.. so stayed home.. read my comic.. watched hollow man.. then here i am.. typing my bLOg..
but i think my bLOg's getting real boring le.. haiz..
NitEz.. ^o^



heez.. me addicted to neopets again le..
let's all go play play lah.. ^-^




而我知道

冰塊　還沒融化　你在看錶　我　笑的尷尬
你說　最近很忙　改天聊吧

那天　我在樓下　想了很久　想　你說的話
你說　愛情很窄　世界很大(而我們應該長大)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我想我　聽懂你　話中的話

而我知道那真愛不一定能白頭到老
而我知道有一天你可能就這麼走掉
而我知道我知道這一切我全都知道
我就是受不了

而我知道我們曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放開手但不知道怎麼忘掉
而我知道你走了以後的每一分每一秒
卻還是這麼難敖

微笑　緊緊咬牙　給你祝福　你　自由飛吧
你說　溫室沒有燦爛的花(你總是很有想法)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我同意　可是我　淚如雨下







fRiEnDs aRE fOR evER!!



yeah!! i'm so happy!! my com finally can use le.. it's been so long.. so L.O.N.G.. since i last last use my com le.. ^-^ miss you.. haha.. heard the new song?? it's a new song by my favourite 5566!! their song's in english.. so cool de.. ^-^ so very LoVE them!! .. serious!! (taken from hitFM..) so COOL ar.. gonna cry le.. B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D.. haiz.. anyway.. juz gotten a haircut.. not much different.. juz neater and erm.. slightly shorter.. erm.. dunno.. got no difference ba.. the person say no need to re-perm.. still curly.. then.. i anything lor.. dun perm lor.. anyway think my hair gonna die le.. heez.. i wanna colour my hair!!.. but dunno wat colour.. scared to obvious then go school.. teachers say this say that.. a bit the troublesome lor.. heez.. dunno lah.. haiz.. oh yes.. my timetable out le.. got lesson till 8 plus plus next year ar.. aiyoh.. then got certain days go school for two hour lesson only.. timetable all weird weird one.. wat the.. haiz.. ay.. wat else should i do now?? ay erm.. juz read hUiEn's bLOg.. haha.. she say never see me for two weeks le.. ay.. izzit so?? got so long ar?? wa.. that's long.. haha.. ay.. anyway.. tomolo can see see le.. got lesson.. then can pass her all her stuff.. got a lot of things with me man.. ay.. got gEnERaL pApER bOOk.. sHiN's bOOk.. aDD. mAtHs bOOk.. lOts oF mAg.. hER pREzziE for hER fRiEnDs.. hER u-LoVE aLBuM.. and oh ya.. tomolo die also muz remember to go collect the free postcards for the pre-order thing.. tomolo's the last day le.. mUz REmEmBeR ar.. aiyoh.. haha.. ME SO WANNA DYE MY HAIR!! heez.. wat colour should i dye?? haiz.. so long didn't bLOg.. so much to say.. heez.. went for the show-casting thing again le.. and i think tEREnCE cHaO is so cute lor.. haha.. he very very friendly de.. heez.. so sweet de.. heez.. it will last in my memory forever.. i'll never forget.. promise.. ^-^ then this christmas is kinda boring ba.. did nothing much lor.. spent christmas eve at home with cousins.. aunts and all.. then christmas went to eLi's church with jiAwEi.. ended abt 9 ba.. then went toa payoh to eat eat.. sit around talk talk and stuff.. erm.. jErEmy came too though.. ay.. then erm.. went home almost one.. phew.. L.A.T.E!! and know wat.. people got not enough cash lor.. thought got enough de.. dunno how the taxi driver drive.. go like the longer way lor.. then got to ask my brother bring money down for me.. so paiseh man.. T.T then ay.. erm.. ya.. yesterday too lazy to type.. so.. juz added the christmas greeting thing.. haha.. then erm.. ay.. so here am i today lor.. heez.. kiez lah.. since com okie le.. will bLOg rather frequent.. then i shall end here le lah.. ^-^ bYEz..











You're the loving smile.. the one that is entirely devoted to others..
especially that one person.. You really can't get them out of your head.. but then..
you don't really want to..

wAt kiNd oF sMiLE aRE yOu??




5 days to CHRiStMaS!!



haiz.. it's been so long since i last updated my blog le.. my com's down.. wat the.. bored at home.. till i'm gonna die.. lucky i've got quite a lot of wrapping and writing of CHRiStmAs.. erm.. CHRiStmAs cards to do.. heez.. quite entertained lah.. a lot of work too.. phew.. finally done.. now popped over at my aunt's house to use my cousin's com.. A.G.A.I.N.. ^-^ ay.. wat have i been doing so far then?? nothing much ba.. so long couldn't updated in my bLOg.. felt a little de lost lor.. it has already become part of my life that.. without doing this.. it felt.. wEiRD.. haha.. i think i'm wEiRD lah.. haha.. erm.. me took the girlfriend test too.. found the link from hUiEn's site.. i think it's so extremely true boy.. haha.. so me.. and i mean SO!! but.. maybe.. not everyone appreciate ba.. haiz.. anywayz.. time flies.. the holidays coming to an end le.. school's starting soon.. gotta start working hard again le.. oh yes.. at this point of time.. hUiEn's out of town.. so tomolo she's gonna miss violin lessons.. and i haven't gotten the scores memorized yet.. G.R.E.A.T!! haiz.. oh and.. eLi's gotten her 'N' levels results le.. and she passed.. so happy for her.. ^-^ she's my mummy afterall.. wonder wat we gonna do on CHRiStmAs.. erm.. CHRiStmAs.. my this mummy's gotta go to church.. i wanna watch the sOUNd of cOLoRs show.. feels so sweet.. anyway.. i think the NeW yEaR's EvE's events are planned.. eLi said we going for jU-On 2.. at erm.. 12 midnight.. as in midnight show ar.. dun think got one at midnight exactly de lor.. then erm.. muz countdown.. haha.. then cAt's returning on the 1st.. might find some time go pop pver at her house.. see see her.. before she leaves for australia ar.. then we'll miss her like crazy le.. haiz.. so sad.. haiz haiz.. now wat else should i say?? i've gotten my u-LOvE album le.. so nice one.. ^-^ kiez lah.. gotta go eat eat.. then going for some holland v.. as in the show.. dunno wat thing at my aunt's workplace.. the cast would be there too.. heez.. bYEz.. till the next time i bLOg again.. take good care and enjoy yourselves!!

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-Sensitive-
You're Sensitive, and you'd like to stay that way.. Sorry, listened to a bit too much Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally charged.. You definitely love the person you're with, and always want to know how they're feeling so you can make sure they're happy..

wAt kiND oF giRLfRiENd aRE yOu??



hey everyone.. heez.. me am now using my cousin's com at my aunt's house.. heez.. all the way at bukit panjang.. phew.. that's real far.. took more than an hour to come here by train lor.. haiz.. sleepy somemore.. heez.. and so u see wat i mean by stay away from home?? haha.. not at home means good.. most of my close friends are sick and tired of orchard le.. so ask them go out like want them to die.. then i think hUiEn's still stuck at home.. so erm.. heez.. found another refuge place.. haha.. somemore... F.A.R F.A.R away from home one.. ^-^ ay.. erm.. me need to go out shopping.. mom ask me go get clothings for nEw yEaR.. but i hadn't really gone shopping as yet.. erm.. probably getting some tops.. like another three t-shirts or something.. and hope to get a dress too.. then probably get another demin skirt and a pair of jeans.. yup yup.. that's abt it lor.. erm.. anywayz.. for something more closer to us.. erm.. CHRiStmAs.. erm.. CHRiStmAs prezzie are decided to be shared with hUiEn.. erm.. getting this tOp that's i think very cUtE and sWEet.. erm.. for mE, hUiEn and cAt.. then together with this cLOvER bRAcELEt.. also getting those for eLi and jO.. then erm.. i still think my candles idea still cOOL.. but dunno wat hUiEn thinks.. maybe can get them for not so close friends ba.. like.. erm.. mUHAmmAd, jOyCE.. maybe for dEsMoNd and jEFfERy too ba.. heez.. ^-^ i dun mind doing the wrapping though.. actually.. have gotten some ideas on how to wrap the prezzies le.. erm.. got to get red papers.. green ribbons.. white papers and erm.. translucent kind of wrappers.. hee.. anywayz.. aunt juz went work.. bYEz.. heez.. okiez.. now wat should i do.. B.O.R.E.D.. oh yes.. me also wanna get the u-LOvE and R&B's album.. wonder when i'm going out to get those.. oh YES.. gotta get CHRiStmAs cards soon.. have to get them sent out before CHRiStmAs which isn't very long from now.. heez.. wonder wat we gonna do on CHRiStmAs day itself too.. B.O.R.I.N.G.. i wanna a CHRiStmAs PARTY!! erm.. the telly juz said that chocolates are GOOD CHRiStmAs gifts.. heez.. can consider that though.. haha.. kiez lah.. dunno wat to write le.. continue tonight at home ba.. bYEz.. ^-^ P.S hUiEn.. when we going out huh?? muz be before the 18th kiez.. ^-^




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gO sEe wAt yOu aRE.. ^-^




heez.. that doll's in a wedding gown.. think it's too early to talk abt this but.. the gown's so very PREttY.. so S.W.E.E.T lor.. haha.. will wear something like this when i get married next time.. heez.. pROmisE.. v.



dO yOu kNOw??dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least 6 feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush.. i keep my toothbrush in the living room now..




heez.. juz added a new tAg-Gy tAg-Gy in my bLOg..
muz tag tag kiez.. ^-^



wat the.. this is the third time i'm typing for the first post today lor.. i so f***ing hate my brother lor.. i'm damn sick of this le lor.. repeating wat i wanna say for three times le.. i think my house so need a receptionist lor.. i'm not born in this stupid house to answer calls one lor.. i've been like answering 10 to 20 calls in the past half an hour le.. and it's all my brother's lor.. if it's his bloody calls and if he knows it jolly well.. CAN'T HE BLOODY HELL ANSWER HIS OWN STUPID CALLS.. i'm not paid to answer calls here one lor.. mom ask me not to answer.. then okie lor.. i let the stupid phone ring so some stupid people can go answer on his bloody idiotic own ar.. then wat.. it becomes my bloody fault ar.. my grandmother scold me for not answering the phone.. and everytime call also not disconnected.. muz be when i wanna post and publish thing that time then muz disconnect.. some sickening stupid idiotic people cannot finish talking watever rubbish they wanna say in one call one lor.. muz say over one thousand one zillion calls.. STUPID IDIOT.. i wanna get out of this stupid house fast ar.. stay here any longer i'm so gonna D.I.E faster lor.. and i mean R.E.A.L F.A.S.T lor.. wanna find a jOB fast and stay away from home the faster the better.. dun care whether they happy or not ar.. say i treat the house like hotel then treat like hotel lor.. all the more i'm gonna do it.. dun care if school start already anot liao ar.. gonna wORk and StUDy at the same time le.. got free time means go wORk ar.. never am i gonna stay home lor.. unless no single soul at home.. if not i'm juz gonna lock myself up in my little room lor.. there's lots of stuff i can get myself to do anywayz.. dun care le.. that's D.E.C.I.D.E.D ar.. to hell with watever they say le.. hate this place..




12 days to CHRiStMAS..



my star reads.. set a goal and work towards it.. LOVE: you might be physically attracted to someone.. but that person might not turn out to be what you expected.. FRIENDSHIP: a friend might be hiding something from you.. LUCKY COLOR: bright pink..



haiz.. it's like juz another B.O.R.I.N.G day.. phew.. went get something for my dad this afternoon.. then went my brother's school.. wanted to get books but erm.. seems like the school's bookshop's closed.. wat the.. wasted trip.. haiz.. anyway.. next issue of tEEns have got tOrO on the cover.. haha.. C.O.O.L.. and in it have got xiEzHi and mEngzHE's interview.. haha.. so go get ur copy today.. heez.. feel like i'm advertising for them le.. haha.. oh ya.. got sHiN's concert and wEiBo too.. heeheez.. and i think this white halter cotton jumper thingy looks cool.. haha.. might go get it though.. but ay.. like dunno where's the shop lor.. hee.. ^-^ oh yes.. and erm.. haha.. xiEzHi said..
"i think my character's actually really close to You YaYu's.. especially his never-say-die attitude and the way he protects his friends and family.. but you know what part of YaYu is even closer to my character?? he's really bad at maths! you won't believe how bad his maths is - i think his head would explode if you made him do some kind of maths problems in school! i'm really bad at maths too.. i'll give you a very good example.. we're spokespersons for an online game in Taiwan.. and we were packing our goodie bags in the office.. there were some really cool mousepads and there were originally four for each of us.. but my colleague came up to me and said that there were only 12 left and asked me how i wanted to split them.. i told them airily, "oh.. just put four in each bag.."" haha.. oh my god.. i think xiEzHi is so damn extremely extremely the C.U.T.E lor.. heez.. i think i'm crazy.. hee.. and erm.. wEiBo wants to adopt a dog.. heez.. oh yes.. qiUzHe's on the magazine too.. haha.. anyway.. the mag gave me a good suggestion.. but i wonder when that can actually to me and my group of friends.. haiz.. ay.. they suggested a pAjAMa pARty where we all girls sleepover at somewhere.. i dunno where.. having everyone in a nightie.. then come up with some theme.. haha.. so C.O.O.L.. i hope we'll have that someday.. heez.. so S.W.E.E.T lor.. haiz.. anyway.. hUiEn.. get a copy of the mag ar.. got something in it that maybe at this point of confusion.. might be of some help.. ^-^ flip to page 98.. ger.. eNjOy..



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heez.. edited some changes to my bLOg.. yup yup.. have a new mUsiC.. erm.. and some diVidERs and the aRcHiVEs thingy.. heez.. anywayz.. still think my bLOg's kinda boring.. haiz.. will do more tonight.. bYEz.. ^-^



haha.. juz saw xiEzHi on 完全娱�... oh my god.. he's so damn extremely sHuAi lor.. haha.. had a haircut.. he now look so fresh lor.. wow.. i'm so crazy-ly in love with him ar.. haiz.. still muz wait real long before he comes to siNgApORe again le.. haiz haiz haiz.. anyway.. their 2nd album will be out on the em... 6th 7th or 8th of January ar.. and they'll be having their 2nd concert in siNgApORe on the 17th of April.. i so await for the day to come.. heez.. so love xiEzHi ar... ^-^ ay.. anywayz.. me went for dental appointment with jOycELyN today.. and erm.. talk quite a lot with her.. haha... haven't seen her for so long le... heez.. ay... anywayz.. she's gotten a new boyfriend le.. from jc one somemore.. hee.. so C.O.O.L... and i'm erm.. still single.. heez.. erm... and ya.. my tooth starting to have relapse le.. as in.. the spaces like opening up kind of a thing.. muz go back again next month le.. haiz... anywayz.. met eLi and yAnyANg at around 6.. go walk walk.. erm.. obviously at orchard ar.. heez.. ay.. was shopping around for cHRistmAs prezzies for everyone.. haha.. and i've decided wat i'm gonna give.. yippEEz.. hee.. ay... and erm.. think i'm getting something nice for dESmOnd too.. haha.. ^-^ afterall.. it's a sEAsOn Of giViNg ya.. okiez.. then was getting home when it's pouring like crazy.. wanted to take cab home actually.. but the queue was even longer than i expected.. so still took the bussi.. haiz.. got home.. not totally wet ar.. but erm.. W.E.T.. yup yup.. so took a shower.. watched wAnyU.. and so here am i.. hee.. okiez.. anywayz.. getting late.. time for bed.. NitEz eVERyOnE.. ^-^

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heez.. anywayz.. i visited the teenage.com.. coz hUiEn said her com very laggy.. so yup yup.. and i saw this.. it's for the new mONtH in the new yEar..
The world you are living in now is very different from before, and you find yourself looking back often. You think a lot about those people who matter to you: parents, grandparents, friends. You try to apply those early lessons to new experiences. End of January, a winter holiday abroad do you good. Come the spring, your love life blossoms. In August, there may be another trip again. Singles will find true love.
haha.. let's hope.. anywayz.. NitE gUys and erm.. gErs..



wow.. boy boy boy.. hUiEn's so in love with such a devoted guy.. he's so swEet and so a very niCe niCE guy.. how i hope i've a boyfriend like him.. haiz.. his girlfriend's like away in australia for studies and that's gonna be a whole L.O.N.G eiGHt years.. and he's waiting.. and i mean.. wAitiNg.. how sweet can that seriously get.. oh god.. ^-^ i think if my kor reads this.. he's gonna say i also have one.. haha.. but.. haiz.. nevermind.. feels really sorry for him... and erm... sORRy.. i so hate myself.. how many hearts muz i break before i'm happy?? haiz.. i didn't mean to.. i really didn't lor.. the feeling has to be there ar.. haiz.. i've like sOmeBoDy for actually tWo years.. i mean.. today's the 11th.. T.T ... two years ago on this very day.. i saw this sOmeBoDy.. and i so believe in LOve At fiRst siGHt.. trust me.. i so do.. haiz.. and two years passed.. and i'm still the same me and he's the same him.. and ya.. i'm still waiting.. i will.. ^-^
so hUiEn.. see wat i mean.. i always say i wanna give up.. but.. i've never never ever been able to do so.. haiz.. God bless..




haha.. found this pic in a webbie.. heez.. cutez cutez.. this animation is from a japanese comic.. haha.. i've got the whole set leh.. anyone wanna read can borrow from me ar.. dun shy shy.. ^-^









heez.. i'm getting damn extremely bored.. haiz.. why's hOLidAYs so very long?? nothing much that i can really do.. and.. i've long finished reading those comics that i've bought rather long ago.. B.O.R.I.N.G.. wat else can i do?? haiz.. seen enough of the com.. seen enough of the television.. wanna do some shopping!! HELP!! haha.. hUiEn's stuck at home.. then i lost my little shopping partner.. out with the others.. i think i forgot how to shop.. haha.. bOriNg bOriNg.. hey.. see the little bat bat thingy at the side?? so cute right.. heez.. that'll be my next haLLowEeN costume.. heez.. like as though i attended any.. anywayz.. will attend one if given a chance de.. promise.. i am so eXtReMeLy bOrEd.. i so wanna go sHOpPiNg.. somebody go tell hUiEn's mom to let her out can?? please please.. haiz.. oh yes.. i wanna catch LOrD Of tHE riNgs.. haiz.. wonder when can i actually.. phew.. oh.. and i think dUpLeX feels like a nice show too.. heez.. got iNfeRnal aFfaiRs tHReE too.. haha.. and ay.. jU-On 2 would be out on the 31st of December too.. heez.. and erm.... seems like there's this korean movie.. cRaZy FiRst lOvE.. ay.. NC16 somemore.. haha.. maybe quite nice ba.. hUiEn has watched it.. think most korean shows are not bad lor.. my favourite one would be one that was shown last year.. heez.. tHE sUrPRisE pARty.. it's a extremely extremely swEet one.. trust me.. hee... anyway.. i'm eating cHicKEn fEet and hUiEn's damn jealous.. haha.. oh.. erm... feels like i'm doing a movie preview kind of a thing here.. haha... ay.. there's this show called.. aNNa iN kUNg fU LaNd.. heez.. feels quite cOOL.. heez.. got eKiN and miRiAm.. but.. i think chinese movies aren't exactly worth watching ba.. vcds out real fast de.. heez.. anywayz.. think mONa LiSa sMiLe's a nice show?? haiz.. okiez.. i'm getting bored again.. anything interesting for me to do?? oh boy boy.. okiez.. me go eat eat dinner lahz.. bYeZ..



phew.. today's like the erm... 9th le.. time flies.. 4 days have passed since my little biRtHdAy.. i'm finally 17th.. and i mean F.I.N.A.L.L.Y.. hee.. wat have i been doing?? erm... on the 5th.. ay.. went out with... tHaNe.. jO.. hUiEn.. bOOn cHoNg and qiNg yAo.. quite unexpected people though... hee.. but still thank them for spending the day with me ya.. haha.. was out.. but couldn't really produce noise.. hee.. ay... yup yup.. we went hUiEn's favourite sushi place to eat.. and erm.. wondered if we saw her dEsMoNd.. i mean.. she can't really recognise.. and so can't i.. hee.. then erm... went take neoprints and erm.. home.. kinda boring though.. haha.. but erm.. muz thank thank everyone for their prezzies.. ^-^ oh yes.. then i shall also take this time to erm... thank thank rEnYoNg for erm.. coming to my house with my favourite cHeeSe cAke.. wanting to celebrate biRtHdAy with me but.. erm.. S.O.R.R.I.E.. was not at home.. so sorry.. ^-^ but.. love your cheese cake.. thanks lots lots.. then ay.. yup.. that's the end of a day..
on the 6th.. ay.. think got nothing much... another normal day.. throat still like the same.. not much difference.. but maybe should say got better lah.. haha.. can at least produce some noise to pollute the Earth le.. haha..
then sunday.. erm.. went for violin lesson in the morning.. erm.. then walked along orchard to i dunno do wat.. pass time probably.. then met my parents.. aunts.. grandma and cousins at marine parade.. to erm.. eat eat.. to erm... consider that as a celebration.. yup yup.. ate at cRystAL jAdE.. but i think my cousins and i made the M.O.S.T M.O.S.T noise in the restaurant though.. haha.. so paiseh.. sorrie.. hee.. then went walk around.. and erm... ya... once again.. thanks for those 'angpaos' and prezzies everyone.. ^-^ then had to meet eLi they all at erm.. orchard again.. felt kinda stupid though.. was at orchard.. went marine parade.. then erm.. went back to orchard again.. haiz.. gotten erm... dEsMoNd's prezzie from eLi.. erm.. ya.. it's a t-shirt.. really C.U.T.E.. but erm.. dunno leh.. feels kind of a big.. heez.. but anyway.. thanks again..
then erm.. monday went out with eLi.. jiAwEi.. and mUhAmmAd.. caught a movie.. and think i never regret watching movies with eLi ar.. the shows she chooses to watch are usually quite nice.. i swear.. i'm speaking the truth.. so hUiEn.. you should go catch eLf.. it's a niCe one.. swEEt and erm.. cOOL.. ^-^ the story's about this eLf.. that's actually hUmAn.. as in he was brought back to north pole by sANta.. and erm.. brought up as an eLf.. yup yup.. cUtE.. then erm.. wanted to go back to new york city to find his real parents and the journey he went through.. to get to new york.. then.. meet this girl that he really likes.. haha.. cUtE.. fUnNY too.. heez.. then okiez.. shouldn't continue.. eVeRyOne.. gO cAtcH tHis mOviE.. hEeZ.. anyway.. LOrDs Of tHE riNgS out in theatres already.. haha..
and now for today.. decided to stay home.. since i've been out for continuously a few days already.. so hOmE swEEt hOmE.. heez.. erm.. haiz.. but i'm missing someone.. haiz... i msged dEsMoNd to thank him for the present.. but erm.. he.. there's no reply.. haiz.. i dunno why.. dun dare ask.. so can only wait and see.. haiz.. heard from eLi.. they spend tWo dAys down at orchard to hunt for my little prezzie.. ^-^ never expected dEsmoNd to hang around orchard de.. kinda touched actually.. heez.. really S.W.E.E.T... heez.. but he isn't replying.. so erm.. haiz.. i dunno... really really dunno.. haiz.. maybe.. he's really got some reason.. let's hope so.. aLL tHE b.E.S.T eVeRyOnE.. stAy hEALtHy.. v.




Happy Birthday to mE.. Happy Birthday to mE.. Happy Birthday to mE.. Happy Birthday to mE.. v.



One More Try

門開了又關 關了又開 以為你回來
我還在 你不在 從天黑等到天又白
沒有你道Good Night 我繼續喝著Wine
我暈得要死 卻一點都不痛快

我知道你有新歡 取代我這個舊愛
我的眼淚被枕頭深埋 卻沒有人管
你賴在他胸懷 我死命胡亂猜
一個人的無奈

你的愛還在不在 該離開還是等待
白痴才放棄你 不再一起
也許讓我失去你 是老天無聊的安排
你的愛還在不在 為何只剩下傷害
快沒有力氣 再擁抱你
我就快要不行
Oh! Baby Give Me One More Try

聽時鐘滴答滴答這麼帶走你的愛
我的心噗通噗通想你卻停不下來
燈光瞬間昏暗 影子變的孤單
再也找不到 一個人可去依賴

我知道你有新歡 取代我這個舊愛
我的眼淚被枕頭深埋 卻沒有人管
你窩在他胸懷 我死命胡亂猜
一個人的無奈

也許這就是愛情 動了就不能停 控制不了的心 該飛到哪裡去 找尋



phew.. so long long didn't add in my B.L.O.G le.. erm.. was feeling sick the past few days.. first day had a F.E.V.E.R running @ 39^oC.. the whole day it was at that high temperature.. wat the.. tot i was dying though.. got no single strength to get off my bed.. haiz.. then fever subsided but wat the.. my throat got worsen.. i couldn't produce a single sound yesterday.. felt like a mute.. damn siCkEniNg stupid.. now i understand how those disabled people feel.. it's a extremely hard time.. u can't express ur feelings and the pain... the feeling sucks.. trust me.. it S.U.C.K.S.. seen the doctor.. doctor gave medicine.. dun seemed like it's helping.. no cure.. still the same.. haiz... the medicine damn bitter somemore.. damn hard to swallow.. then have that stupid taste in my mouth de.. eat sweet also cannot get it off.. so wat the.. haiz.. so wat.. tomolo's my B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.. but wat the.. i dun think i'll enjoy myself very much though.. haiz.. wat a boring year this one can really get... haiz.. saDdEniNg.. probably this is juz my life.. haiz.. i know hUiEn's planning hard to arrange something nice for me.. but.. erm.. how nice can it really get when i'm not feeling very the well?? haiz.. this feeling really sucks.. but anywayz.. still got to thank my cute little nice bEst fRiEnD of mine.. hUiEn, thanks lots lots.. ^-^



okiez.. now's getting late.. 3 mins
passed one.. time for bed.. NiTe gUys.. ^o^

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ay.. from top left (clockwise)..
CAt.. jOyCe.. eLi.. sOpHi.. mE.. and hUiEn.. erm.. mY gRoUp oF bEst bUDDiEs.. aY.. sOmEoNe's miSSinG.. wHeRe's jO?? ^-^



yoz people... today's 1St DeCeMbER.. heez..dunno why.. juz felt like reading out the date.. erm.. wat have i done today?? haha.. juz some nonsensical stuff ya.. hee.. ay.. today.. woke up eArLY eARLy in the morning to get to mEdiaCOrPs.. wat the.. back to those normal stuffs again.. yup yup.. ay.. i think today's job was more.. erm.. E.N.J.O.Y.A.B.L.E and probably.. more R.E.L.A.X.E.D compared to yesterday's though.. heez.. ay.. anyway.. today's script's about some NKF dialysis schedule and all.. a erm.. local mandarin program.. actors and actresses were.. Joanne Peh.. erm.. Qi Yi Wu.. Huang Wen Yong.. erm... this little girl.. so cute and i think she's damn talented.. ^-^ not every little kid can do this.. she's simply G.R.E.A.T... oh yes.. i saw Pan Ling Ling too.. she was juz sitting beside me.. having her make-up done up too.. haha.. so C.O.O.L.. hee.. and she even walked up and talked to me.. yippiez.. haha.. although she's not my favourite Huang BiRen.. but i'm really touched by her friendliness.. so sweet de.. :p haha.. think i've gotten a whole lot of experiences through the past two days of show-casting.. damn C.O.O.L.. dONe it witH nO rEgRets mAn.. i promise.. really.. tomolo's my off-day.. hee.. wat should i do?? erm..guess hUiEn's still stuck at home.. gROUnDeD.. haiz.. erm.. maybe i should bring my cute little bROtHeR out for a walk.. haven't been out with him for a L.O.N.G L.O.N.G while le.. okiez.. think that's settled.. oUt sHOPpiNg tOmOLo.. ^-^ haven't been out shopping for a long time too.. time to relax myself.. heez.. ay.. anyway.. i wonder if dEsMOnD went for prom nite this evening.. asked him.. but he doesn't want to tell.. wat the.. and ya.. wondered wat jOyCe wore without hUiEn's gown?? phew.. lots of wonders.. haha.. and ya.. mUz aNNoUnCe pROuDLy.. i'M fREe fOr tHe nExt tWo wEEks oR sO.. gREat!! sOmebOdY's oUt oF tOWn.. hAaHa.. v.



haha.. plans changed.. couldn't make it for violin class today.. phew.. got to get to the mEdiAcORps at erm.. 10.. that's real early though.. then wat i did most was to sit there.. keep real Q.U.I.E.T when they asked us to.. and C.L.A.P when they say clap.. and S.M.I.L.E if told to.. wat the.. but maybe it's easy money ba.. hee...if i'm not wrong.. we left at around two plus plus.. went to do a little shopping.. BUT.. before much was done.. i was called to go back again.. okie.. but C.O.O.L.. this time i've got a role.. ay.. something which they called it the erm... F.M?? wonder wat's that too.. but who cares.. at least i've got something to do other than juz sitting there and be controlled by the directors.. oh YES!! haha.. got a lot of sHuAi-gEs there though.. heez.. i think i was half the time looking at the handsome guys then concentrating on wat i'm supposed to do.. heez.. haha.. okiez.. but to the main topic.. i acted with erm.. dunno wat's his name.. but erm.. that honkie that acted in the show 'Livin' with Lydia'.. yup yup.. ^-^ had a enjoyable time too.. haha.. erm.. other actors and actresses were there too.. like erm... the Yan Can Cook guy.. and the.. International Superstar GiGi.. she's damn pretty boy.. hee.. anywayz.. i've learnt a lot though.. it's like... whenever we go watch a movie in the theatres.. we often forget the fact that the filming, editing and all the other stuffs not of it probably real long.. and with G.R.E.A.T G.R.E.A.T effort... phew.. tHREe cHEeRs fOR tHe bACkstAGe pERsOnNel.. HiP HiP HORraY!! HiP HiP HORraY!! HiP HiP HORraY!! :p erm... anywayz.. from wat i've seen so far.. the movie's abt erm.. the mother taking part in a cooking compeititon.. and erm.. i happens that her son was there too.. as in taking part as well?? B.L.U.R.R.E.D?? so am i.. haha.. better go catch the movie ar.. ^-^ got me in it leh.. *puke puke.. heez.. ay.. anywayz.. i've got another role to play tomolo.. haha.. some NURSES' stuff.. damn cool ya?? :p haiz.. but it's gonna be R.E.A.L R.E.A.L R.E.A.L eARLy.. phew.. GooD LuCk tO mE.. v. Nitez eveyone..
P.S erm.. tomolo jeReMy's leaving Singapore for thailand.. erm.. juz to wish him.. bOn vOyAGe.. ^-^ tAkE cArE..

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