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hey everyone.. how have everyone been so far?? haha.. wonder how many people actually reads my blog.. but.. the lesser the better.. heez..

anyway.. this post is specially dedicated to my dearest mummy! haha.. see her post --> so.. before she kills me.. or flood my taggy.. heez.. here goes..

i've known my mummy.. for.. say a whole three years.. coming to four le ba.. wow.. juz imagine how fast time really flies.. i still remember those days where we (mE and huiEn) were having our o'S.. while u guys (u and cAt) were having ur n'S.. heez.. the heck-care period of time?? those days when we were said to be having exams.. when we could eventually head to shop @ orchard huh.. haha.. those were the days..

think.. cAt has already left us for rather long too le huh.. wow.. time really really flies.. o.O.. soon.. i'll graduate from poly.. and.. out into the working society.. heez.. fulfilling my dreams as a air stewardess.. haha.. then after i enjoyed enough.. i'll be back to my studies again.. heez..

mummy ar.. u having exams real soon le o.. muz study hard hard ar.. manage ur time well well kiez.. still got more than enough time to do the final revision!! jia you!! remember always o.. u have mE.. cAt and huiEn here to support u o.. go ger!!


anywayz.. juz wanna wish those who are having exams soon.. all the best.. and to those that have ended the exams.. happy holidays.. to those who are working.. happy working.. and to the singapore idols.. especially sylvEsteR.. BEST OF LUCK.. ^-^V


-jacyie- off to study for exams.. whoopz..




oh gosh.. i only have 4 more days left to the exams.. but.. i haven't even started a teeny wheeny bit.. god god.. wat am i supposed to do?? i'm still so not in the mood??

i spent most of my time on the computer.. will go surf around.. play games.. see stuffs.. view blogs.. then.. try drawing sly.. oh no.. times running out.. but.. i dun wanna study!! help.. haiz.. sianz..





this is wat i've tried drawing.. dun look like him?? haha.. i said tried though.. heez.. maybe.. it's only the hair that looks more like him?? heez.. his eyes are so so hard to draw.. his eyes are.. so.. small.. flat.. tiny.. okie.. i know.. u.n.i.q.u.e.. haha..

kiez.. time for bed.. nitez..




it's been er.. rather long since i last update ar.. heez.. past few days was rather hectic.. busy rushing for project.. that ugly asp.net presentation was finally over.. finally gotten a heavy load off my back.. heez.. feel so free now..

saturday.. went to jiMMy's house in the morning to do the project.. till 7 plus.. haha.. stared at the computer like almost 24.7 a day then.. heez.. then met huiEn and rEbEcca to head for zouk.. that night was so so.. fun and enjoyable.. never expected it to be that way.. we were late.. so by the time we arrived.. it was past 9.. and becoz.. i wasn't 18 as yet.. i wasn't very confident abt getting it.. oopz.. haha.. but in the end.. i managed to 'sneak' in still.. i mean.. i'm juz a few months away from 18.. shouldn't have worried that much huh..
by the time we got in.. er.. bEn's performance was over le.. i wonder wat did he perform.. sobx.. so not fated.. everytime also like that de.. haiz.. fated.. then we stood at the far back.. on the stairs to get a better look of the stage.. finally after all the boredom.. the idols finally came out.. they sang a birthday song for cleo.. and er.. that's all?? kinda shocked at the short performance.. but.. nothing can be done?? i so wanted to take pics.. but we weren't allowed to.. so.. haiz.. then when the whole thing ended.. we tot that they would be leaving?? so we rushed out.. rushed but.. not run.. dun wanna sound like a idiot u see.. heez.. but.. only saw maia and daphne on the bus home.. the rest of them stayed back in zouk to party.. haha.. so cool.. so in the end..we went back in..
and when we finally somewat decided to leave the place.. we saw sLy and this other ger in front of us.. and haha.. i dunno why.. but i suggested that we follow them.. gosh.. i think that was like bloody obvious?? haha.. we, together with sLy and that other ger went up to the other sector of zouk.. but they didn't stay there for long.. then went downstairs holding hands.. so er.. we were actually wondering some stuffs.. but i think not.. haha.. anyway.. a while later.. we went down too.. heez.. stood near the dance floor.. it was huiEn who noticed sLy in the dance floor.. haha.. then rEbEcca dragged me down.. she has long wanted to get down there to dance.. but mE and En wasn't very into the idea.. haha.. i wanted to pull En down too.. but.. she didn't move a bit.. not till i went up the small pile of stairs to specially escort her down.. heez.. we were so so near the idols.. juz a few steps away from them.. heez..
i saw sLy dancing.. so cute.. and he claims he can't dance.. he can.. so cute somemore.. heez.. i dun really remember wat we did.. but.. seems like the group of them caught our attention.. ben and chris.. as well as sLy kept looking towards our direction.. haha.. probably.. i have a pretty friend beside me ba.. ^-^ and soon.. i dunno if sLy came over on purpose.. or watever not.. he came over to our side.. now.. he's only a step away from us?? haha.. he was feeling hot.. so my dear friend asked me if i have tissue.. so er.. i passed my packet of tissue to her.. and er.. she passed it to him.. haha.. pass tissue also need middle-person leh.. heez.. he was kinda shocked initially.. but.. he took a piece to use though.. heez.. so cute.. then he was like asking us why aren't we dancing.. er.. not that we are not dancing.. juz that we dun dance as well as him?? haha.. that was wat i told him.. heez.. then a conversation juz struck off between him and rEbEcca.. i was.. actually kinda jealous.. but.. haiz.. wat to do.. heez.. juz stood there looking at the two of them talk.. haiz.. anyway.. i saw bEn dancing at the other end with this other ger too.. heez.. cutez..
then sLy had to make a move.. he told rEbEcca that he's leaving and.. i was like.. in my mind.. 'wat the..' but.. haha.. he did shake hands with the other two of us too lah.. heez.. was actually quite happie abt that le lah.. but.. he added an extra surprise for me.. heez.. shall not mention it.. sorrie if i brought unhappiness to anyone.. was a so so so cool night.. one night i can never forget.. heez..

then came sunday.. ya.. without having to say.. it's another day of asp.net.. but.. we somewat managed to get 5/6 of the things done.. heez.. then got home at almost 11.. preparing myself for yesterday's presentation.. and now.. finally.. it's all over.. time to start preparing for exams le.. good luck to everyone having their examinations now.. all the best~

till the next time i blog again.. take good care of urself.. and hope to see sLy.. bEn.. and xiaocUn soon.. byEz..




i hate this feeling.. i'm like all stressed up with projects?? but she's getting on my nerves.. crying doesn't help.. but it'll definitely heal my wound.. makes me feel better..

we were once really close.. once the kind of everything can talk ppl.. we shared and talked abt everything under the stars.. but.. now.. seemed like the stars became our only topic.. be it if she reads this.. i can't be bothered.. stop treating like i dunno wat.. if u dun treat me as a friend.. please say it straight into my face.. hate me.. say it.. i've done no wrong.. my conscience are clear.. u now have ur own new group of better friends.. that doesn't mean u can treat me like shit.. treat me the way u are now.. i'm no dog to u.. i'm a human too.. a daughter of my mother.. a loving mother.. a sister to my little brother.. and a grand-daughter to my caring grandmother.. wat right have u to do this to me??

my heart is broken.. i dunno who can cure.. i hate my life.. i hate wat i am.. maybe.. i so shouldn't have come to this world.. this place isn't for me.. i've never felt this way.. but.. i really dunno.. i dunno who to say this to.. but.. my bloggie serves to be the best place..

i love u dear.. thanks for ur care and concern.. i shall not curse i shall not swear.. i'll continue to lead the life of my own.. in a world of wonders.. i control my own thoughts.. i can choose to remember.. i can choose to forget.. but.. rest assured.. i'll never forget this.. god bless..






heez.. took this photo rather long ago le.. after the yEllow riBBon concert.. outside the back exit.. heez.. think it's rather nice o.. but.. huiEn dun like.. dunno why also.. she's.. weird?? haha..

anyway.. eUpHoRia '04 finally over le.. so cool.. had so much fun when sHin came out.. not to mention the beginning.. extreme boring though.. haha.. sweat a lot out o.. heez.. but.. the 5 old men stayed in the hotel after the concert.. in the end.. since uncLe was there to send me home.. we went to chase mAcHi.. dunno why.. but.. haha.. managed to take a pic with jEff too.. so weird.. but.. heez..

today.. me stayed home o.. so tired after yesterday's sweat-out.. heez.. was supposed to go jiMMy's house for project de.. oopz.. haha.. postponed to the weekdays ba.. heez..

anyway.. the concert was nice though.. without the DJs Zetan Spore ppl from uk.. it would be totally perfect.. a 2-hour long extreme boring performance.. which had almost brought mE, huiEn and ReBecca into our dreamland.. haha.. but sHinHwa was so cool too.. miNwOO was the cutest.. haha.. with special meaning?? heez.. ^-^

next week.. gonna go see syLvEster and bEn @ zouk o.. so excited.. but.. i wonder if i can get in.. and er.. been out till rather late the past few saturdays le.. how huh?? aiyoh.. somemore.. exams round the corner le.. haiz..

*kiez lah.. will keep updating.. nitez..*



things change.. fast.. and faster than i would ever expect..

sobx.. something's wrong with me or izzit her? wat? i dunno.. dun ask me.. probably.. she'll know? haiz.. juz like two boards floating on the open sea drifting apart.. feels juz that way.. oops.. was it me or her? i really dunno.. find out from her.. no longer sharing everything under the stars.. now.. only when we need each other.. that's ONLY IF..

haiz.. sad case.. i miss him.. i read.. i've realised.. i muz love myself.. i'll try to.. i dunno how.. but i'll try.. but.. i miss him.. did i love him too deeply? was i wrong to do that? haiz.. i wondered.. short short.. how short could it really get? haiz..

i think no one would know wat i'm writing.. but.. since it's for me to see.. for me to know.. so why i worry abt the contents.. the language.. the sentence structure.. the grammar.. blah blah blah.. had too much of biz comm le.. haiz.. juz for u to find out..

i'll have school at 9 tomolo.. have biz environment.. IP.. and biz comm projects due this few days.. think better start to work hard.. had too much of fun le.. time for study~

exams count down.. 22 days.. ganbate!




today was our lucky day!! heez.. so happie!!

went for tEnsioN's autograph o.. heez.. wasn't a very big crowd.. but.. the queue was long.. not very... but long.. we took a lot of photos though.. considered near ba.. haha.. and.. joHn's so cute?? he kept looking at me when i went up for his autograph.. i actually wanted to tell anDy stuffs de.. but becoz joHn kept looking.. and to react.. haha.. i did a 'peace' sign to him and he smiled.. haha.. so cute.. and i kinda forgot wat i wanted to tell anDy?? heez.. anyway.. got my album signed.. and went off to orchard..

wanted to sit at starbucks initially.. but.. that place was so packed that.. not a single table was empty.. so we headed to.. LJS!! and from afar.. this guy looks so like syLvestEr.. but.. i wasn't sure.. and god knows wat!! it's really him!! so cool.. so lucky o.. haha.. he's kinda cute though.. heez.. oops.. huiEn got to take a pic with him.. kinda blur.. but she owes me one.. haha.. managed to pass a note to him too o.. asking him to join the yahoo group.. er.. passed by.. ME!! haha.. so huiEn owes me another one.. heez.. ^-^

so after finishing huiEn's storyboard and our lunch.. we headed down to heerens to walk walk.. and.. hahaha.. we saw.. tEnsioN!! i'm like.. wow.. extremely lucky today?? hahahaha.. never expected today to be so fun.. heez.. pray hard this goes on for the rest of my days.. heez.. hope i'll be able to see bEn on the streets.. see xiaocUn unexpected in singapore too.. heez.. and er.. maybe syLvestEr again?? haha..

so happie~ new beginning of my life!! heez.. ^-^




today's the 3rd of october le o.. heez.. fast fast.. 24 more days and i'll be taking my exams.. wow.. less that 4 weeks o.. and there's so much to study.. phew.. better start studying le.. heez..

i'll be going for tEnsioN's autograph.. anyone going?? how come no one reply me de.. haiz.. think we'll juz go as planned ba.. heez.. the thing starts at 1.30?? hope it starts on time?? heez.. waited more than an hour the other time for them o..

er.. me and huiEn went for the yellow ribbon concert o.. er.. for free?? oops.. so guilty.. ppl doing charity.. but.. i didn't pay a cent for it?? haiz.. and.. the seating was like.. near?? oops.. but.. the concert was rather cool.. tEnsioN sang 'tiE thE yellOw riBBon roUnd thE oLd oAk trEE' as the finale.. so nice o.. heez.. it was a really really really last minute decision.. ReBecca ar.. if u see this.. please dun curse and swear at me kiez.. sorry.. ^-^

kiez lah.. got to go le.. to see tEnsioN again.. why am i so crazy?? haha..




i'm back.. heez.. with a new skin.. a new song.. a new look.. and a new perspective le.. heez.. time really flies.. my last blog was months back.. too many things happened.. too unexpected.. so hard to believe.. too hard to accept.. and then.. too hard forget..

finally.. i can blog again.. but.. i totally dunno where to start.. things happens too fast.. too saddening le.. haiz..

will be late to meet hUiEn le.. will find time again to blog ba..

p.s hUiEn.. if u were to be able to read this.. forget abt the past.. look into the bright future!! heez.. supporting u alwayz.. ^_^ *dun forget.. u still got me o.. strive on!!

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