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it's been so long.. yawnz.. juz finished the international business stuffs.. haha.. so happie.. another thing off my back le.. heez..

now.. i'll have..
(1) BM0509 CRM Quiz
(2) BM0520 MR Quiz
(3) BM0517 Biz Comm Resume and Cover Letter
(4) IT2603 XML Practical
(5) IT2692 WebServices Prototype
(6) BM0509 CRM Portfolio
(7) IT2604 e-Practicals 6 - 10.. more coming up ba..

anyway.. i'm so looking forward to wednesday when i finish off another 4 items on my list above.. haha.. and then head off to play badminton in school.. in hope that i'll see my BOY BOY then.. haha..

yupz yupz.. i was at the dance thingy on friday.. and i'm so so happie?? haha.. anyway.. i tot the little white riding hood guys were great lor.. but they only get second.. but.. still well done?? heez..

i so hope i'll go shopping with my mummy tomolo lor.. i wanna get skirts.. i saw this white one that was quite nice?? actually.. i tot it's really sweet?? heez.. maybe i should juz get it?? haha.. and yes yes.. the flesh imp denim skirt as well.. heez..

and ya.. on the lookout for shorts and slippers.. haiz.. i so have to go on a diet le.. T.T










wat the.. if u want to quarrel.. please leave me out of it lor.. i've got totally nothing to do with it can..

the words were so harsh lor.. she might have killed ur whole family.. or watever shit.. but.. i think one should learn to 'forgive and forget'?? if not.. when is the problem ever gonna end??

u hate her.. she hate u.. then that her comes to complain to me.. then u also complain to me.. i become the middle person.. wat am i supposed to do?? wat's more?? i'm in no position to say anything lor..

oh ya.. anyway.. some weird ger called me at 8.54 juz now.. weird..






heez.. open house was fun.. so much things happened.. so fun.. i'm so excited for school again le.. heez.. so long dun have this feeling le..

we did something so cool?? haha.. we helped huiEn get that GUY's email add.. and i think they are beginning to talk le.. er.. i mean.. beginning to mail each other le.. so cute?? haha.. and their mail is as fast as talking on MSN.. they reply each other within minutes.. haha.. so ke ai..

me here wishes them all the best o.. dun forget ask me be ur bridesmaid leh.. haha.. ^-^

anyway.. heez.. on my side.. i'm now so addicted to friendster?? i'm like every minute every second also on it le.. haiz.. not good not good.. better start doing my projects and all le lah.. heez.. but.. that BOY BOY's cute.. heez..






gosh.. guys these days are totally hopeless.. it's either they got looks but no character.. or got character but no looks.. and even worse.. no looks and no character..

today on the way to school.. this 20 plus ugly guy in a wrinkle-free shirt and tie pushed me to alight the train at city hall.. wat the.. so not gentlemen-ly?? i know the train at the other platform had arrived.. but.. there's totally no need to push?? feels so wat.. so not gentlemen.. (disappointed..)

anyway.. i suddenly so miss that someone?? i dunno why.. but.. sobx.. wat am i to do?? i wonder if that someone feels the same too.. haiz.. miss those sweet memories we once had..

heez.. why are ppl these days using whichever means they have and treat it as a blog?? is applying for a blog so hard?? ppl are writing their daily lives in friendster.. even yahoo groups.. haha.. weird ppls..

and wat's more.. i didn't know i had such a poetic friend.. haha.. gosh.. the tot of it makes me wanna laugh.. haha..






anyway.. my week 9 holidays are confirmed to have been shifted to week 8.. which means.. we wouldn't have the extreme long holidays for chinese new year le..

but.. according to the timetable.. er.. it seems like most of our supposedly week 8 lessons are e-learning.. so no school still?? aiyoh.. sometimes.. i totally dun understand wat the school is trying to do de lor.. bo liao..

reBecca.. when am i gonna get my pics?? haha..

oh.. anyway.. muz let this be a reminder to myself ar.. next time go see concert better not scream like crazy ger.. muz be those sweet and innocent ones.. juz stand there and give the sweetest of the sweetest smiles.. heez..

bEn made us sound like some really loud loud-speakers kind of a thing.. aiyoh.. so paiseh lor.. i wonder how xiaocUn felt the other day at the j-stArs concert.. gosh..

heez.. my kor's 26th le.. haha.. getting old le o.. muz work hard hard to feed family le?? haha.. hope u enjoyed urself today lah.. god bless!!

sometimes.. a white lie cannot be avoided..

anyway.. we went suntec for the buffet.. met reBecca at almost 1.. (er.. haha.. was kinda late.. oops..) the meal was.. alright lah.. not too bad.. but.. i dun think i'll really go recommend everyone to go.. heez.. will post post the pics when she sends them to me lah.. ^-^

oh.. then went for the ALIVE concert all the way at fajar.. met ziJun.. jiaxiN too.. but that was on coincidence.. happen to see her there de.. heez.. when i arrived there.. then i remebered i forgot to ask huiEn?? oops.. called her.. but.. i dunno.. she sounded quite pissed?? but i tot she will remember.. then call me or something.. although i forgot.. haiz..

the concert was kinda enjoyable.. but think quite short?? it started at 8.. till abt 11.. coz it's held at the parade square kind of thing below HDB blocks.. the concert cannot be extended.. sobx..

bEn's performance was nice!! heez.. but.. the ugly 'asian idols judges' (okie.. some lame thingy they did last night..) was damn sarcastic on him lor.. feels so.. wat the.. he sang 'guang huai fang shi' with this other ger.. but.. it's so nice.. heez.. i so love the song..

haha.. huiEn.. that's our song.. remember?? heez..

kiez lah.. got to get to sleep le.. i've got to get to school by 8 again.. haiz.. nitez.. and yes!!

- i miss xiaocUn -

wow.. my report is everlasting.. dunno how to continue writing le.. haiz..

anyway.. wat's happening to our planet earth?? i was watching the news.. and.. wow.. so much things happened.. first.. the tsunami.. then flooding due to the heavy rain.. next.. soil erosion.. and forest fires.. is our world coming to an end?? haha..

haha.. i'm so excited abt our buffet outing this saturday.. heez.. although.. er.. like nothing much lah.. but.. kinda looking forward to it.. probably becoz of this ugly report?? heez.. second day i'm on it le.. still haven't finish.. so sianz.. cannot imagine my 20 page report for international biz coming up.. sobx..

alright.. better get back to my report.. byez..





i was on the train from city hall to home today.. heez.. and opposite me stood this cute little ACS guy in his uniform.. think sec 3 or 4 ba.. haha..

(sorry for eavesdropping.. i didn't mean to..) but.. he sounded kinda agitated.. quarrelling with his gerfriend u see.. heez..

actually all i could remember of wat he said was.. 'all girls are the same..' then hung up his phone.. and i er.. juz happened to be kinda shocked.. i dunno.. juz had some emotion abt wat he said.. so i was looking at him..

haha.. and i think he noticed me looking?? heez.. he looked up.. feeling embarrassed.. he mumbled.. 'oops.. sorry..' gave me a sweet smile and immediately look down on the floor.. haha.. so cute.. heez.. ACS guys.. ^-^

okie.. better get back to my project ba.. so much to do.. sobx..





ever tot?? do ppl actually take the 'ai dao' thing seriously?? i mean.. some ppl will.. but.. i think most aren't even bothered?? i mean.. i dun hear the alarm thing from my house u know.. so at 6.. i was like.. wasn't there supposed to be an alarm ringing or something??

so.. if the alarm is un-heard from my house.. i think most ppl around my area will still be busy with watever they were doing?? er.. an instant example.. some kids were screaming outside my flat at that point of time lor.. so.. ya.. that's wat i mean..

okie okie.. enough of those emotion stuff.. haha.. but.. i was really touched by taiwan's act of putting all the different channels and companies together to perform and collect donations for the tsunami victims and countries.. ought to give them a big thanks..

getting so many companies together wasn't a easy task though... but they did it.. and raised an amount of abt NT$46,000,000.. how cool.. xiaocUn was there too.. heez.. many others as well.. too many to name le.. ^-^

wow.. come to think of it.. new year is juz another month away le.. heez.. that's real fast.. i was telling my grandmOther like few months ago.. new year's still long.. haha.. and now.. juz one month?? heez.. -time flies-

haha.. which.. i think is good?? heez.. so i wouldn't have to wait like extremely long for xiaocUn to release their album.. then i wouldn't have to wait like extremely long for him to come singapore again.. heez..

-i'm missing xiaocUn-

off to see charity show.. ^-^




question: why am i like blogging everyday??

-reason: coz i simply have nothing to do when i come online?? haiz..-

this will only last till next week or so ba.. will be all cramped up with projects by then.. that i think i wouldn't even have time to come online le.. heez.. actually.. i think i prefer it that way?? haha..

anyway.. today's the second day of the new year that i'm in school.. and.. we're all excited abt chalet this coming holidays le?? er.. has anyone tot of the projects we have on hand during the holidays?? haha.. that aside.. heez..

i heard my brother got new target le.. haha.. overheard him telling his primary school friends.. that's like so fast?? haha.. guys these days are no good fellow.. oopz.. heez.. second day of school only?? aiyoh..

i'm juz so so bored.. *yawnz* waiting for xiaocUn's return..




-you are kind-hearted, hospitable, cheerful and well-liked.-

heez.. this is wat i got from the fortune cookie we had juz now.. haha.. so cool??

and.. i was recorded the last person to have used the computer in school last year - 2004.. it reads..

-Login Details
Welcome, your Login User ID is 033168X.
You are now logged on to CL4G1502.
Your last Logon is at CL4G1105,
on 31/12/2004 11:11:30 am.-

so ke ai.. it's the new year.. and that tracking system was something the school newly implemented.. heez..

haiz.. actually kinda sad?? one of the students in my primary school went missing in the tsunami outbreak.. so poor thing can.. it's like.. primary school kid only?? and now.. got no news of him lor..

sobx.. life's so unpredictable.. muz live it well before u regret it..

oh yes.. this is specially dedicated to my team leader - jimmY..

-today.. we were attending this ITIPJ lab lesson.. before us.. some year 1 students were using.. so at 3:54.. we officially proceeded in.. heez.. the students had left their bags on our usual seats.. however.. rebeccA sat down.. reserving the one beside her with the bag on the chair for our proud team leader.. jimmY.. when he came.. rebeccA asked him over.. he came saying.. no.. should be shouted.. (in his mind thinking that bag belonged to one of us..) 'who's bag is this?? aiyoh.. so 'oo-biang'!!' oh gosh.. upon hearing that.. all i could do is to laugh till i couldn't stop?? oopz.. haha.. that guy immediately took his bag away.. and my poor leader was too embarrassed to remain.. he left the class.. with me laughing away..-

heez.. my first day of 2005 in school was great.. hope urs was too.. enjoy.. i LovE xiaocUn!!









now i totally understand how one feels when u say juz one thing abt someone.. and in turn u get shot back like 10 times?? not very nice a feeling.. i mean.. no need to bring up the whole world of things to shoot back at that one sentence.. statement or watever shit u call that ba..

(please please.. to everyone out there.. i think this is totally one thing to avoid especially when u juz quarrelled with ur boyfriend/gerfriend o.. i think the final outcome.. BREAKUP??)

at the 26th hour of my new 2005.. something hit me hard.. and i mean real hard.. juz like a knife that cut right thru my heart.. it's not that pinching pain.. it's the extreme pain.. and seconds later.. u dun feel it anymore coz.. u are dead.. sobx..

firstly.. i think i have a lot of things i wanna clarify.. not to end up in a quarrel that will last forever to be gotten over.. or even in a fight.. juz.. i dunno.. miscommunication?? i dunno lah.. watever.. actually.. our bond had already be broken.. the mending does not cover the broken lines..

like i've said in one of my many many months ago's post.. we used to talk abt everything and anything under the stars.. but.. now.. stars became our only topic..

yupz.. i think that totally expressed watever that i had always wanted to say.. it's juz like the story of the father asking his son to knock a nail into the wall everytime he thinks he did something wrong.. and to remove one for every good that he had done.. at the end.. although all the nails had been removed.. the damaged had already been done.. even if u were to amend it.. the holes are still there..

yupz yupz.. it's juz that kind of feeling.. we aren't wat we used to be le.. no more..

maybe all this misunderstanding are caused due to the lack of communication.. or should i say.. the no more talking abt everything under the stars ba.. if we had like openly talked like wat we used to do.. we wouldn't be like that ba.. and i think i wouldn't be typing this.. and.. all the things wouldn't have happened??

haiz.. i think it's juz like wat reBecca said.. friendship is so.. so weak and fragile.. wat has been done has been done.. and cannot be undone.. so.. yupz..

sometimes.. i realized.. friendship cannot last forever?? when u are like best friends with this someone.. u will say.. friends forever.. but.. years passed.. friendship weakens.. so wat's with the friends forever thing?? haiz.. that's reality ba.. sobx..

(reflect.. reflect-ed.. reflection..)

PINK.. i actually love all colors.. becoz.. i thank God for giving us this colorful world.. i thank God that i'm not a color-blind.. i love all colors.. from black to white.. red to blue.. yellow to green.. i still love blue as much as i love pink.. i have a pink bedroom.. but i have a blue table lamp.. i have a pink bag but i have a blue file.. i have both pink and blue markers for me to draw stuffs when i'm bored during lectures.. i have pink earrings.. but.. i've got a blue pendant.. i've got colorful pairs of converse shoes which include a pink and a blue one too.. and this list continues..

GUYS.. okie.. sorry for cases like jOe.. sLy.. and the new s&k guy.. i'm a sagittarius.. and er.. i think i'm the kind of sagittarius that voices out everything i like.. but am those who keeps to myself the things that i don't.. i dun wanna offend ppl u see.. keeping the bad things that ppl might have done to me or things that i juz dislike to myself is the best resort.. or izzit that sagittarius and geminis are simply meant to be enermies?? er.. i dunno.. but it seems that way.. for sLy.. er.. i wouldn't be crazy over him if he didn't lay his smooth and sweet little hands on my face that day.. not so for the fact that u were busy talking or promoting him to me.. sorrie.. er.. i think one reason why sagittarius and geminis muz stay away from each other is that.. one talks too much while the other keeps quiet?? so hard to understand.. but for other cases.. er.. noted that.. i hardly like the guys u liked.. our tastes are actually quite off?? heez..

-i dunno if i should continue clarifying or to continue debat-ing against those things u've said that had hit me real hard.. i'll have a long speech to go if i do.. i feel like getting it off.. but..-




on this 24 mins past the first day of the new year 2005.. i'm listening to leehom's xin zhong de ri yue.. and munching on my very expensive box of green peas that flew over from japan.. heez.. **nice nice.. (i've always hated green peas o..) haha..

anyway.. firstly.. happY nEw yEaR!!

it's another year passed.. and.. i dun think i've done anything of any good to anyone or.. even to myself.. so it's more like leading a meaningless life for the past 18 years??

oh gosh.. am i supposed to do some reflection or something of those sort?? haiz.. since i'm of no good to anyone.. then i think i better not be of anything bad to anyone.. please.. everyone.. ensure me that.. sorry if i have been one.. seeking everyone's forgiveness.. haha.. (sounded so.. i dunno.. heez..)

okiez.. besides that.. i was supposed to talk abt xiaocUn's post in the yahoo group!! haha.. that made me so high.. and it definately made this 2005 new year a extreme happie one!! heez..

it all began like this.. (bubbles bubbles.. ^-^)

on the last day of 2004.. i was supposed to be attending some class meeting with my PEM.. but.. i woke up late and couldn't make it on time for it.. so i decided to juz skip it.. and hence.. i've got this 15 mins extra time out of my normal schedule..

i didn't know why and wat.. but.. something juz made me come into my study room to turn on my com and come online.. although.. there's like nothing in particular for me to do..

surf-ed for like.. say almost 10 mins.. done with the basic stuffs of checking my mails and all.. i sat here.. and tot of wat to do for the remaining time.. and.. haha.. i juz tot to visit our specially made for xiaocUn's yahoo group.. and.. to my extreme surprise.. he left a msg in our group saying 'happY nEw yEaR!!'.. oh god..

that's like how sweet lor.. i went laughing and jumping all over my house the next min when i finally came back to reality.. heez.. so sweet lor.. he left a msg on the 31st december 2004 at 4:48 am..

remember i was juz saying how sweet he was by leaving a post in his taiwan's group.. so can u imagine the extra sweetness when he left a msg in our group?? heez.. so cute..

okiez.. that's all folks!! but.. i'll be waiting for his return to singapore again.. i miss him.. sobx..

anyway.. it's like the new year.. and.. i think.. i'm supposed to have like new year resolutions and all?? heez..

but er.. both my eve and the actually day didn't go very much as planned worx.. oops.. is that like supposed to be a bad sign?? heez..

actually.. i dunno wat resolutions i should have lor.. maybe like.. to hurry settle down.. get married and live on?? heez.. okie.. kidding..

think muz study hard hard le.. stop my crazy shopping habits.. and er.. lose lots lots of extra weight.. or should i say fats?? haiz..

sorrie ar.. a sagittaurius (hope i've like.. got that spelling right.. but.. watever..) hates to be tied down.. so.. heez.. resolutions are so not me.. shall kick them all aside.. i live a life of my own!! haha..

oh yes.. i colored my hair like.. er.. yesterday?? heez.. on the 1st.. i mean.. my mom helped me color my hair.. and.. i think the color not bad?? haha.. and u know wat.. my mom's in a good mood.. she says i should get my hair slightly highlighted for the chinese new year.. heez.. how cool!!

heez.. okie ba.. shall continue tomolo or something.. in case ppl read this post till they doze off.. haha.. nitez.. ^-^V.

once again.. happY nEw yEaR!!

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