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from childhood till beyond

firstly.. i hate blogger for not saving my post.. it was so long lor.. and now.. i have to retype.. even after i tried to recover my post.. it deleted half of it away.. wat the.. T.T


anyway..


i'm graduating in few days' time.. how fast..

i've submitted my applications for NTU and NUS le.. but.. i so feel that i wouldn't be accepted.. my results aren't great lor.. HAIZ..

disappointing.. i think i wouldn't really feel anything when i receive the letter this end march that i'm not accepted ba.. kinda preparing myself for this piece of news le.. at most if the letter comes to say something different.. then i'll feel something ba.. HAHAHA.. :)


i'm done with all my projects.. tests and presentations le.. suddenly.. all the workload disappeared.. the feeling.. kinda weird.. feel so.. LOST.. heez..

time to prepare for the last two papers before i'm officially done with my poly life.. then about a month of waiting for results.. i think my entrance results for uni and my last semester's results release at around the same time lor.. hope they wouldn't be too disappointing..

actually.. i so feel that i should have worked harder la.. then maybe entering into local uni wouldn't have been this hard.. sobx.. everything is too late now.. :(


anyway.. i built a sudden close friendship with someone.. heez.. someone who reads my blog.. ;p

u know who u are la.. heez.. thanks for all the nice and interesting conversations that we had.. haha.. though we aren't this close previously.. but suddenly.. we had so much to talk abt.. how cool..

sometimes.. i really think that it's nice to have a really good guy friend.. heez.. at least there's someone for me to joke with.. someone for me to ask advice from.. jus like i used to in my secondary school days.. THANK U!

thank the project that brought us to knowing each other better.. heez.. and i guess.. somebody is quite jealous of u ba.. ;p


heez.. after yesterday's talk with my dearest girl.. the neglect period is finally over.. jus some miscommunication.. some misunderstanding ba.. the feeling of letting the matter known to each other feels so great.. at least i know wat had happened.. and she knows wat i did that out of.. i really didn't mean to hurt u this way.. i really dun have the intention..

the neglect that i've gotten then had the same impact on me.. i was really hurt.. seeing u and her together.. seeing u and her being so closed.. i didn't want to play the third party.. hence.. i decided to let u two be happy together.. but.. the times i have in school.. was miserable.. more than miserable.. more than anything i can use to describe..

but thank god.. it's all OVER now.. our misunderstandings cleared.. our friendship has now sustained a deeper level.. let's not let anything like this happen again.. cos this friendship of ours matters a lot to me.. hope it does for u too..

i guess the most important thing abt friendship is mutual understanding.. and the ability to talk things out with each other after something had happened..

I LOVE U! i'm ur lesbian friend no. 1.. and u are mine too! ^^


to my little yumin..

we are not deserting u girl.. we've never.. and had never tot of.. cos our friendship matters.. if we had really wanted to desert u.. we wouldn't have wanted u to change.. the change is for ur own good.. for the better of ur own self.. i know u are trying to change.. we see the effort u are putting in.. and we understand too.. but if u really couldn't.. we could always accomodate.. but.. it seems like u are forgo-ing this friendship of ours..

why couldn't we work something out? why do we have to communicate this way? why do u have to always hurt each and everyone of us through ur writings in ur blog? ur indirect insults and comments hurts us greatly..

wat are friends really for when u couldn't even consult us for help.. we are always here for u.. but it's like.. u've decided to desert us even before we could even try to accomodate each other.. dun throw us away.. cos we really care.. can we try to clarify things together? dun lose this friendship of ours in this way..

u matter to us.. TAKE CARE!



to everyone else.. TAKE CARE!




dun ask me why i pasted this.. but i think it kinda says my feelings.. though i dun understand wat it is really saying..

through my own analysis.. is.. there's always a happy ending to everything.. u may feel totally disappointed or upset.. but no worries.. the sun will continue to shine tomolo.. tomolo will be a better day.. :)


it's really fast how time really flies.. jus in few more days.. i would have completed my semesteral classes.. awaiting for exams to come.. and soon.. i'll be done with poly.. i haven't registered my courses in uni.. i'm worried i might regret again with the wrong choices.. i guess i need some enlightenment.. ^^

i wanna try advertising.. i wanna try broadcast media.. i feel like going for tourism too.. wat should i put for my first choice.. and wat if i really can't get in any? and i'm really gonna go out into the working society and work?

I DUN WANT! I DUNNO LA!

the inside of the store is so pretty too la..







even the hanger is astro boy can.. so cute!




heez.. so keai.. i dunno why i like astro boy so much la.. but i think he's cute..


sometimes u really need to be in someone's shoes to actually feel how he/she really felt when u treated him/her that same way..

neglect is wat i can say..

it doesn't feel good being made use of.. but there's nothing u can do.. u can once be very close to that someone.. but something happened.. sometimes.. maybe nothing even happened.. u lose the closeness..

the feeling isn't nice.. cos u wanted to be good friends.. but after being made use of.. the person dumps u into the rubbish chute.. and treats u as transparent..

i would then rather choose be non-existent.. then maybe i wouldn't have to feel this way.. but it's okie.. i still have the rest of them with me.. they care for me.. like how i care for them..

it takes two hands to clap..

few more weeks and i'll be off to make new friends.. i hope i'll be a good friend to them.. i'll be someone that they can rely on.. someone they can share their thinkings and thoughts with.. becos i dun make use of ppl.. i hope they wouldn't too..

CHERISH FRIENDSHIP BEFORE U LOSE IT.

with LOVE, jacyie.

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